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all I wanted

she says in a whiny voice

all I wanted was a horse to ride, which I got, but I also have all kinds of things I didn't want, like drama and doubt and haemorrhaging money and pissing people off right and left and did I mention money? serious quantities of money which is starting to weigh on me, because I only have him for a year - if I can borrow things, or even better if he comes equipped, then I can take better care of him, and do more interesting things with him and fuckety fuckety fuckety boo

sleep may improve this

work that paid might improve this

feeling less likely to be second guessed would definitely improve this