nothing much, or nothing else

I did nothing yesterday except this - I am simultaneously pleased that I accomplished that, because it is getting towards the awesome I was thinking about, and depressed because I did nothing else. Which means that I am good when I focus, and don't try to accomplish anything but that one thing. But I didn't ride, didn't exercise, didn't actually go out of the house except to drop off and retrieve offspring... How am I going to live a creative life if I also have to want to do other things, like ride, and (whisper this) compete, maybe even not at training level test one??? plus the stuff I do have to do, which is not negotiable. I have to be present when a kid needs me, still, although not for a lot longer where not-alot < a decade.

prioritize

stop sleeping

stop parenting

stop cooking

I have already given up housecleaning and vacuuming and dishwashing

stop whining, that would be a good first step. Followed by spring and warm and not tired.