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brain farts
Feb. 21st, 2016 07:33 pmIt is times like these I am certain I will develop Alzheimers - I already have this weird vocabulary thing going on.
I find it so strange that I have to sneak up on a lot of my vocabulary sideways, without actually looking at it. If I need the word perspective, I circle it with vanishing point and sigle point and two point and Mrs Woodbridge who taught me the stuff, and eventually my brain says "perspective" and it is fine. The conversation with Ryan regarding the sticks you talk into to be louder was one for the books (microphones). I am wondering sometimes if I am taking too much pleasure in the brain farts and not trying to hide them - if I am teaching myself through amusement and repetition to keep doing this. If, in fact, I could be practicing to get the word I want and not have to sneak up on it, or if I am just doomed and this is how it is going to be, if not worse, for the rest of everything.
I wonder if I could reward myself with jelly beans or something. Think of a word I want, remember it, and give myself a jelly bean. I could clicker train myself, using positive talk, clickers and jelly beans. There is amusement value in even thinking about that, contemplating how to go about reinforcing getting the word I want, having them handier and more usable and less likely to slide out of my head or out of control with things that sound familiar. The mismatch of auditorium and aquarium still makes me laugh, and the idea of putting everything is something it does not belong in is kind of glorious - put food in the garage, the groceries in the mailbox, the mail in the cupboard, and all the rest of everything in the back of the car.
The set for the musical is getting to be perfect, and I am still failing the producing part, where I get advertisers signed up, collect dollars, type up the ad, collect bios for all the people working... I am hoping to have the stamina for that as we go along. Because at this rate, no one will come, and it will be an abject failure.
I find it so strange that I have to sneak up on a lot of my vocabulary sideways, without actually looking at it. If I need the word perspective, I circle it with vanishing point and sigle point and two point and Mrs Woodbridge who taught me the stuff, and eventually my brain says "perspective" and it is fine. The conversation with Ryan regarding the sticks you talk into to be louder was one for the books (microphones). I am wondering sometimes if I am taking too much pleasure in the brain farts and not trying to hide them - if I am teaching myself through amusement and repetition to keep doing this. If, in fact, I could be practicing to get the word I want and not have to sneak up on it, or if I am just doomed and this is how it is going to be, if not worse, for the rest of everything.
I wonder if I could reward myself with jelly beans or something. Think of a word I want, remember it, and give myself a jelly bean. I could clicker train myself, using positive talk, clickers and jelly beans. There is amusement value in even thinking about that, contemplating how to go about reinforcing getting the word I want, having them handier and more usable and less likely to slide out of my head or out of control with things that sound familiar. The mismatch of auditorium and aquarium still makes me laugh, and the idea of putting everything is something it does not belong in is kind of glorious - put food in the garage, the groceries in the mailbox, the mail in the cupboard, and all the rest of everything in the back of the car.
The set for the musical is getting to be perfect, and I am still failing the producing part, where I get advertisers signed up, collect dollars, type up the ad, collect bios for all the people working... I am hoping to have the stamina for that as we go along. Because at this rate, no one will come, and it will be an abject failure.