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[dancing_crow]

I used to be 35 pounds lighter
I used to get up and exercise at the gym before anyone else was awake, every single day
I used to make something, every day, in my studio
I used to eat a salad every day, and a lot less sugar
I used to walk to town and the library, and make the kids come too
I used to have my migraines more under control


I used to be younger, I guess.

On the other hand (she says, working hard at being fair)

I used to ride only 2 or 3 days a week, and now it is closer to 5 or 6
I used to have only one barn, and one horse to worry about work with, and now it is two barns and 3 or 4 horses
school used to start at 9, now it starts at 7:30
The kids used to be able to walk to school, and walk home unattended, now school is far enough away they need rides
if I make anything else without dealing with my backlog of finished, framed works, I won't be able to move at all in my studio
to that end I am working on finding places to exhibit and hopefully sell some of the F&F work (finished and framed)

I am wiser. I'll keep telling myself that.
I'm wiser,
I'm still absurdly strong,
I can fly my husband and children in circus class and keep up with a pilates class (even having not been to one in years - I was verra pleased with myself yesterday)
I can cook awesome food
I can make people laugh
I love and am loved

OK. it'll be OK.